Rebuilding My Confidence

For the last couple of hours, I've been browsing profiles of available men on a Christian Dating Site.  I felt it was time for me to own where I am.  I'm no longer part of a couple.  I am single and available.  It's not that I feel ready to re-enter the dating world, per se, but I need to create some forward movement.  I need to create some emotional distance between me and my last relationship.  But more important, I need to take my heart out of the past and help it to get strong again.   

I know that you need to heal so that you don't take unfinished business into a new relationship.  It's only been two months but I've used the time wisely, I think.  Yet, I have to wonder if sometimes the heart must be shaken from complacency.  Reminds me of how a heart attack victim heals.  Though it hurts, I've heard a patient is told to cough.  Deep coughing helps prevent complications after heart surgery, I've read.  Another thing cardiac patients are encouraged to do is exercise.  It gets that blood pumping and strengthens the heart. This tells me that healing doesn't just happen; it takes work.

Even with emotional issues, such as loneliness or depression, it is advised that you not isolate yourself.  Instead, you should make yourself get up and out.  There is something therapeutic about being active and getting around others.  I think that's why, after being indoors for a while, I have to get out.  Reminds me of why I love shopping on Christmas Eve.  There is something electric about it.  Likewise, now that I've taken time post-breakup to disconnect, reflect and heal, I figure that it's time to get my heart in motion.  It's time to rebuild up my confidence.

Towards this end, I looked at several profiles.  Most were pretty typical.  Some were a blaring NO.  Nothing jumped out at me; but at least I made the effort.  I can be proud of that.  I believe God to honor my efforts.